So I guess it’s hard to know where to start really 🤔
I will tell you what it’s really like being 286 miles away from home in a private bed which is funded by the NHS .
But first I’ll start at the beginning….
It was the 26th of August in the early hours of the morning my trigger this time was my ex leaving the flat we had shared for the past 3 years, as I don’t deal well with sudden change that’s also a trigger the sudden change of him just upping and going no time to get my head around it and with illness EUBPD comes one of the main features of the disorder which is a fear of abandonment whether it’s my ex or my mum so when he just upped and left with no warning ⚠️ that fear of abandonment came in full force and combined with the fact that I don’t cope well with change , this consequently set my EUBPD off as fast and intense and extreme as a firework rocket going off that’s the best way I can explain it sudden intense extreme emotions. It also left me feeling anxious, abandoned, panicked , and suicidal and feeling unable to cope so I impulsively took an overdose of 32 paracetamol in the early hours .
I had the treatment which consists of a parvo liquid infused via a drip which takes about sixteen hours .
Although I was on the medical ward for a week waiting for a mental health bed so they brought the amazing therapy dog which was the most amazing uplifting feeling ever , I have a dog at home so it was great to be able to cuddle up with one , it definitely cheered me up .
Brighton
So I was woken up at roughly 4 am after only been asleep for an or two to tell me that thy had found me a bed a private one in the priory which is partly funded by the nhs so nhs patients can sometimes go there when every nhs bed in the country is taken .
Understandably I wasn’t happy about being woken up at that time it comes across like certain professionals are so inconsiderate and unprofessional.
I was transferred to Ticehurst the Priory unit on the first of September after a long 7 hour drive .
Upon arrival I was restrained as I had hid a razor in my bra and I was also placed on level 3s which is a high observation level with a member of staff with u at all times even when in the shower room . I spent around 6 weeks in total in hospital.
And I’ll end this post with a few photos from the unit and Ticehurst.
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Love Becky