A positive day ๐ŸŒผ

Hey guys just a quick post ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope everyone’s had a good start to the week so far ….

Everyday is a struggle to manage my mental health , but today has been a good day ๐Ÿ™‚ #makeupday #noworkforme #chiledvibes ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿพ

Love Becky …


Not againย 

My Facebook page , which I also blog from .

I’ve recently noticed that my Bipolar goes in a continued cycle , and what I mean by that is , recently I’ve fallen somewhat mentally ill again these past few weeks , starting from just before my birthday (22/08/91) , I had a great birthday though , and it all came crashing down a week after my birthday , & I guess this prompted me to suddenly have the following lightbulb moment , it dawned on me that I am usually in hospital around the same months every year , just from memory I’ve had an admission , last March & also around March in 2014 & October , January & February this year and last Christmas , & I recall being in hospital twice in august but not this year . My most recent admission being May this year & a week ago I endure the 136 suite , I’m glad I’ve recognised this , every couple of months pattern , it may prove useful in the future . 

I’m still totally unsure why it all came crashing down shortly after my birthday , I were feeling very happy , had even secured my self some work , so I was feeling really proud of myself & generally happy , and were blissfully unaware of anything untoward or of any triggers that may of been coming my way . I guess thinking reflecting upon this , I was hurting as I was acheing to see my daughter on my Birthday , but apart from that nothing major , but none the less I crashed down with an almighty THUD , Whithin an hour or that happy , carefree , confident becky had gone , and I felt a sudden HIT of despair , suicidal feelings , paranoi , and I was hearing the odd voice or two  . 

I guess I’m unsure of what caused it this time because I guess that’s what bipolar does goes round and round in cycles , I were ill in March – May October -November mostly august , & sometimes January & may this year, all requiring a hospital setting to some extent .

And now I’m in the depressive phase . 

I’m interested to know other peoples Bipolar cycles , & coping strategies , as you can see at severe times of distress , I often resort to burning myself …

If you would like to share your story on how you cope with severe mood swings , then you can , 

email me @ rebbeccaclarvis@outlook.com .

Becky …

My world ๐ŸŒŽ

I’m So #lucky to have this wee cute one ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿฝin my life life ๐Ÿ• . Probably Not many of you will know this , but the one ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿฝ & only reason why i got a dog was for the sole purpose of a #therapydog ๐Ÿถ, not just because i simply wanted a dog , the idea just came to me in bed 1 day , while I was deteriorating with Ill mental health very rapidly at home while pregnant, I bought her on my Birthday nearly 3 years ago , we all know that stroking a pet makes us feel good , gives us that warm fuzzy feeling perhaps, Preliminary results from a study show that a few minutes of stroking our pet dog prompts a release of a number of “feel good” hormones in humans, including serotonin, prolactin and oxytocin , & even if your not usually a massive animal lover , they can provide a fantastic calming distraction for individuals suffering from #depression, #bpd , & more increasingly equine therapy has been proven to be very beneficial to those with a diagnosis of #ADHD & severe learning difficulties, & in particular #autism , & although she tests me @ times , as she likes to whine a lot at time , & she often takes forever to go for a ๐Ÿšฝ it was the best decision I’ve ever made ๐Ÿ•๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿพ

My services

A couple of months ago i set up my free online counselling service & mental health & wellness advice service , i set it up via Facebook and I’m now a registered counselling & mental health service, coming under the list of registered businesses & services on Facebook, where you can contact us directly, completely free & confidential . 

The page is for anyone struggling with a mental illness , also those who are pregnant/parents, offering advice, support , & a 24 hour confidential chat service.

For further information please don’t hesitate to get in touch by clicking on the blue highlighted “my services” tab below …

My services

Kind regards 

Becky …

When your mental health inadvertently effects your physical health …

When your mental health inadvertently effects your physical health ...

What happened tonight is a bit of a blur , as understandably so it's affected my memory . But during an angry psychotic episode a door fell full force on my head it's already off its hinges , so imagine the full force of the door just basically fell on me , the instant pain was such a shock to my system I fell to the floor . Anyway I rang 111 for advice , and they dispatched an Ambulance which ย came & a sych nurse came & police man came who specialises in Mentak health , & they all checked me over in every way possible although I refused to go to urgent care . And The door ๐Ÿšช was already off its hinges but it was fixed in place so it couldn't move , I kicked the door , as i was impulsively angry during a ย psychotic episode . And as I was putting the door back to its original place , the full door ๐Ÿšช , fell full force on top of me . The pain was that intense i was in shock n fell to d floor .

So I'm taking it very easy as my face jaw & head are in agony .

It's scary how quickly things have eacalatedb& how bad things have got , where I've now acquired two head injuries in less than 24 hours .


Happy blogging

Love Becky

Bipolar again ….

Hey everyone these past couple of days i haven’t felt very well at all with my emotionally unstable borderline personality disorder & my Bipolar disorder . I’m putting it down to my ex partner who is still living with me & that’s caused me a great deal of distress lately. Also my phone bill has been cut off , so I haven’t got any one to talk to , apart from him . I hate ringing the crisis team , but now I haven’t even got that option , so I’m just chilling, trying to take it easy ….

Much love โค๏ธ 

Happy blogging 


September 2015 Part 2

img_0957img_0899After taking a substantial overdose of 32 paracetamol, downed with glasses and glasses of full fat milk , because I find it very difficult to swallow large tablets , they have to be very tiny indeed , for me to not have a problem with swallowing them .

I arrived at the unit & after having a chat with a nurse , the same lady who told me the dreaded news , that i am now detained under the mental health act , under a Section 2 , the kind lady also gave my boyfriend a lift back home , (see part oneย September 2015 part 1ย ) .

I had a bad feeling about this unit from the moment I first arrived, it was outdated, cold , unwelcoming, unfriendly, & it was a mixed ward serving both male & female inpatients, which is rarely heard of nowadays, & don’t even get me started on the food .

As we all know by now Hospital food definitely isn’t the best , but the inpatient food isn’t usually too bad , but at Ormskirk it seriously was the worst food I’ve ever tasted while staying in an inpatient unit , in fact taste , their definitely was no taste at all , as it was extremely bland , no flavour, with either over cooked meat, or vegetables that are so hard , they may as well still be frozen , and the most outdated bit that I hated the most , was the fact that I had to share a room with another poorly patient, with only a blue flimsy paper curtain , that could be drawn around our beds , being the only form of privacy.

My admission stay in total was four weeks.

Im glad that this is my only admission to this ward , no care plans were well thought out , it was too formal & had to much of a clinical feel for an inpatient ward , I often found the staff with an abrupt & sometimes cold attitude.

I do have to admit though, that the mental health services are starting to make such improvements, such as , making all wards same sexed wards , making the environment more therapeutic for the service users , & strengthening staff training & skills , to furthermore support their patients,however i do strongly believe that strong & effective change should be implemented across every single trust , no matter how large or small , across the WHOLE of the UK .


Another parent takes her own life after having children stolen by Social Services.

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 Another parent takes her own life after having children stolen by Social Services.

Please Share. Another parent takes her own life after having children stolen by Social Services.

THIS BEAUTIFUL PERSON Lacie Dryer committed suicide this morning in her home. Heartbroken from her children being taken away by CPS. She was one awesome mom sister friend and loved everyone. How could someone so strongโ€ฆ I canโ€™t believe this happened. Suicide is never the answer ppl. I miss her already. Please keep her family in your prayers.

Source: Facebook memorial

Source: obituary

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