Meet Megan one of my many hundreds of Twitter followers & Mental Health Bloggers , she lives in South Australia , and she suffers Bipolar Disorder ,.Borderline Personality Disorder & Anxiety .
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Anxiety & Panic attacks
Borderline Personality Disorder
Bio: I am 27 years old I’ve been living with mental illness for a very long time. But I decided long ago that I wouldn’t let that define who I am anymore. I am so much more than my illnesses. I am a writer, a painter, a knitter, and an avid walker. I love the winter time; I love the rain. I also have a constantly growing collection of stuffed animals. I love tattoos.
Always Unstable: The Book I Almost Gave Up On
When I started writing this book I had no intention of finishing it and let alone publishing it. I stopped and started it so many time, sometimes for months at a time. But earlier this year, after a hospitalization, I became determined to finish it. I worked on it for hours and hours at a time. I took my meds late so that I could have more time at night to write. But then, eventually, I finished it. And I felt so fucking proud of myself. But what to do next? Just leave it alone? Or start submitting it to publishers. Submitting it to places was terrifying, it was hard and took a lot of work to do each individual one. But I did it anyway. And I got no responses. I handled it better than I thought that I would. But I did leave the book alone for a while. I guess I lost interest in it because I thought that no one else would be interested in it and that kind of hurt.
Fast forward to earlier this week and my husband was again pestering me to self-publish the book instead. He’d been telling me to do so for ages and I just kept not listening. I thought that I should wait and see if a publisher wanted it, which of course they didn’t. I didn’t want to self publish, it seemed like so much work and I didn’t even know where to start. But he helped me there, he did all of the computer and technical work. All I did was supply the manuscript and give opinions on the cover and lay out of the general book. And then voila, my book was all of a sudden on Amazon as an ebook. It was one of the proudest moments of my life. I was an author, at last. Now we’re just waiting for the proof of the paperback and then we’ll have that on Amazon too. It’s so exciting.
So, now I have a book available for the world to see. It’s a book about Bipolar Disorder and my five hospitalisations. Some parts of it were truly emotionally difficult for me to write, there’s parts that I can’t read because they make me cry. But it’s all there. My book is honest and I’ve been told it’s addicting also. I don’t sugar coat anything, every bad thing that I’ve ever done is out in the open. My problem with substance abuse and my struggles with being mentally ill are all out in the open. When I talk about each hospitalization I also talk about what lead up to it and what happened afterwards. I felt that it was important for people to know how I ended up in the hospital so many times. I’ve been there for a suicide attempt, a mixed episode, mania/ eating disorder, electroconvulsive therapy, and a psychotic manic episode.
I hope that someone will find comfort in this book, I hope that someone will relate and realise that they’re not alone. I hope that someone will read it and decide to get help. I hope that someone without a mental illness reads it and can better understand someone that they know who is mentally ill. I have so many hopes for this book. I hope that it helps at least one person at the very least.
Love Becky 🙂 xx